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wow...i am so shocked n confuse after readin yq's post. cuz 1st, u said i didnt noe wad true frens were, dn i tell u, ive gone thruh mre den wad u tink u had.u cn ask my gud frens frm prps. dey cn vouch fr me. n u said dat i kip disturbin u all.. since when?! i dun evn dare tok to u all, let alone disturbin u all rite?? pls lah..as if i dare disturb u all. n u said i was too?? too wad? wan sae dn sae larh..no nid act as if ure so gud to me n tryin nt to hurt my feelings. cuz u alrdy had. n life is always NOT SMOOTH. its normal fr it being NT SMOOTH.
u said u hve problems wif ur family. dn i tell u, SO DO I. ure nt de oni one facing all dis problems. i juz fought wif my mum. she always side my sis. wad eva she do is right n me? WRONG. she gimme face n smile at my sis. so u see? every family is bound to hve a problem. nth is always smooth.
u said y muz i tell wj bout sotong tellin me dat. dn i ask u, arent true frens suppose to help u when ure in nid?? well, dat was wad wj was acting as, A GUD FREN. i called her cuz as i was so lost n confuse.i needed help.dats wad frens r fr rite? to help wif ur problems. so i was turnin to wj fr help. IS DAT RONG? if i culd solve it on my own, i wuld hve done so. bt i couldnt. dats y i needed wj. u oso said i was abit over le. means wad? i anyhow hit u all? scold u all? n dat wasnt over ok. in fact, i kept quiet about it.dat wasnt de 1st tym dat i was being ignored. i controlled. n y? bcuz i wan to still be frens wif cc n wj. bt until dat day..u pushed it over. u misunderstood me of being sellfish, of tinking dat i did nt allow u to tok to cc. u misunderstood me fr tinking dat i wanted cc all to myself. dn i tell u, ITS NT LIKE DAT.
u said i always show temper to u all. temper lyk wad? i see ur face i strt shouting at u? or strt hitting u? U TELL ME. u wan me to chnge. bt i told u,
NO ONE CAN JUDGE MY LIFE. I AM HU I AM. I WAS BORNED OUT TO BE LIKE DAT. EVERYONE HAS THEIR OWN PERSONALITIES, U CNT JUZ CHNGE SOMEONE CUZ U WAN HIM/HER TO CHNGE. its nt dat i dowan to chnge. bt, u OSO NID TO CHNGE. u shld stp misunderstandin ppl n jumping into conclusions.
n i nvr sae anytin bad bhind ur baks b4!! cuz, i treated u as
one of my fave fren in class. n u said dat u cn b vry scary when ure angry. dn lemme tell u. SO CAN I. nt oni u hve ur bad n dark side. i oso have. n nt oni u cn show it. i oso can. so u do nt scare me. cuz ive seen worser case dn urs in my pri sch. im nt sayin dat u hve to practise mre to scare me bt, u cnt use dat to threaten me. it doesent work.
sorrie to those other frens of mine hu is readin dis crappy post. i noe its nt funni or happi. bt...i gotta sae wads deep within my hart n wad i really felt after readin yq's post. n cc, u have no right to b angry wif me.
N SO DO I. we were bth ignored once, so its a fair fair situation. n hu said u needed to care if i died. so u can cancel de ' i die u dun care, u die i dun care' part cuz. its de obvious. n i nvr badmouthed u. u r one of my close sisters in class leh. so... i duno where de hell u heard dat frm. bt anyway. its all over. dis is juz wad i tot after readin de posts frm ur blogs. frens again?? hope so ^^
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